Tonight I feel sad and lonely...
I have switched yet again... and once again, he feels like little more to me than a distant stranger; someone who is familiar but mostly just visually :(
I understand that a part of this is in preparation for my return to Adelaide... But it doesn't make it any easier... It also makes it hard to know which is the most truthful or valid reality where it comes to making decisions that could possibly effect every aspect of my life...
It's at times like these that I feel the most lost and alone :( I just don't know what to do...
I hate that the accuracy of this Dissociative Identity Disorder diagnosis is becoming more and more indisputable every day :( And I hate what it is doing to Me and to my life and to the lives of those around me...
I am afraid... And I am lost... And I am alone...
:'(
