I have two beautiful daughters, whom I love very, very much...
A lifetime of chronic abuse that began in very early childhood for me, has resulted, among other things, in multiple diagnosed mental health issues that I battle every day...
- Borderline Personality Disorder
- Bipolar Disorder
- Dissociative Identity Disorder
- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
I do not see any of these labels as anything but a way of grouping sets of symptoms which commonly occur together in people who share a common causation... These labels do NOT define me... They DO, however, help others to potentially understand my perspective on certain things a little better at times...
Until now, I have run multiple windows live spaces sites (via msn) but as windows live is closing down in March of 2011 and I have been having serious problems with an ex-client turned ex-partner turned now-stalker, I felt it was time to find a new place to exist... It was a heartbreaking decision because I have fought so hard since I first began journalling in April 2005 (although the entries logged began 15/12/04) to stay honest and to keep being heard even when it hasnt been easy or when it has been dangerous (due to threats and abuse from a partner at the time)...
Beginning again is very hard... And had windows live spaces not been closing down, I would still have found a way to fight my way back to that journal despite my stalker... I am trying to look at this move, not as a defeat, but as a necessary measure due to circumstances outside of my control (windows live spaces closing down)...
Anyway, I guess all that leaves now, is to begin journalling once again...
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