Heartbroken :'(

Some paths you walk in life appear different... but in actual fact, they never truly change...

Tonight I feel heartbroken on a night I should be so blissfully happy... I wish I wasn't here...

I've been everything I can be and I've given more than all I have... again

I feel even less than invisible...

How could he do that WITHOUT even any alcohol as an excuse and not know it was so desperately wrong... Let alone show it off to me...

And now, once again... DESPITE the fact I have SO MANY reasons to be very much NOT okay today, IIII have to suck it up and PRETEND that I'm okay and that of course nothing is wrong... IIII have to put aside the excruciating pain inside... And IIII have to find a way to hold back all of these burning hot, unshed tears...

I have no choice... because this is her wedding day... and I WON'T cause a scene...

I hate this :'(