Sliding...

I can feel myself slowly but surely sliding back to where I was for almost all of yesterday...

I am terrified...

Much longer in that state of mind and really bad things would have begun to happen, either yesterday or very soon after...

I dont want to leave the house right now... I am afraid... and overwhelmed... But if I dont get out and right now... something worse might happen...

Once again... I am trapped... I have no real choice... Survival is necessary for the sakes of my daughters... but not for Me

And so now I head out to face my fear of the outside world in the hope that I might find myself in a better, and hopefully, not worse situation than I find myself in now...