Indirect HOPE...

On Tuesday night (or potentially in the very early hours of Wednesday morning) this week, he said words that I am still revelling in repeating over and over again inside of my head...

Those precious words took my breath away, as the weight of their potential meaning reverberated right down to the very deepest and most secret parts of Me... with joy... and with Love... and with... Hope

And in order to feel any of this... It means I am truly learning to Trust...

It is fragile... but it is there... and it is growing...

Slowly but surely... I am beginning to... heal

For his part, he seems to have always chosen his words (with Me and whenever I have observed him with others) very carefully... and there were so many other ways to have been able to word what he said to me; what he informed me he was about to do... or more to the point, the way he chose to describe what he was about to do and how...

It was certainly not a direct declaration... but then I do not think he is quite at that point yet... and I am truly okay with that... I drift in and out of being at a point where I could make a direct declaration myself... Quite simply, there are ways in which we know one another so very well... and other ways, in which we hardly know one another at all...

So although there is always room for misinterpretation, I really don't think I have misinterpreted this...

Just as I was informed (by him) that it was not a misinterpretation (believing him), the first time he referred to Me as his 'geeky girlfriend'... He meant it when he said girlfriend... and although there was no big fanfare or official announcement, he was serious about it... He was already serious about Me

He is so deliberate when he speaks... and he is certainly not one to fill his sentences with pretty but empty, meaningless words... especially not with Me...

He knows I listen to him... very carefully

I have aired on the side of caution with him many, many times before, only to be informed (by him) that before I had questioned myself, I had had the correct interpretation...

That leaves (most likely) only one beautiful truth...

And about that... I am very happy...