Words I can trust...

Last night was emotionally fulfilling and healing and cathartic...

We talked... a lot

His words showed me that even without a god, there really is a point to being who I have always worked so hard to make sure I am... He showed me that 'good' isn't weak and pointless... And that people like Darren and Rob were wrong when they tried to bully me into embracing a violent way of reacting to these situations and predators...

He also showed me that I really am talented musically... and artistically

Not because he is 'into me' but simply because... I am...

His words were so... I'm not sure quite how to describe them... um... baseline? He said them as statements of fact... There was no exuberance or starry-eyed passion... It was simply a logical, dispassionate assessment of what was...

And I can trust in that...

So now it is up to Me to do something with this new information...

Already, things are shifting and changing inside... and I am truly thinking... for the first time in a very long time...

Because I am finally beginning to see an un-varnished and realistic version of who I am and my real skill-set, through the eyes of someone I feel I can trust to have no agenda and to not be trying to be 'nice' to me... my confidence is growing... on a very deep and stable level... in ways that are solidifying who I have always been but simply lacked the confidence to show...

I am growing and 'hardening' (becoming less fragile and vulnerable with regard to my abilities)... and very, very soon... I will be 'going somewhere' with what I can do and what I have created...

Stay tuned...