Words... numbers... tears... and... Hope

Words made numbers make sense (at last) tonight in ways that have left me feeling dichotomous feelings that I don't really quite understand how and why I feel right at this moment...

At the very centre of it all... (I am hoping and believing)... is honesty

I now have the chance to process major emotions and events I never had the chance to process at the time they happened... And funnily enough, I am not alone in this...

I am grateful for the miracle of synchronistic timing and for such equality in mutual respect and exchange... And for emotional integrity and honour...

I am grateful for the rare and precious opportunity to discover and truly open up to and connect...

I am grateful for maturity... and honesty... and trust

I am grateful to be crying tears that are pure... for reasons that are uncomplicated and unconvoluted by lies and deceit...

And although my tears themselves, right now, are for so many reasons, both related and not......... I have found and touched something rare and precious here... And I am so grateful... And looking forward to what is still to come in this area; perhaps in the context it was always meant to have been...

For the first time in a very long time.., maybe even for the first time... ever... I feel as though there is... hope... and maybe even the reality... that I am not completely alone in this world...